Tears of Love

It was bright day, but he was feeling dark in front of his eyes. In that dark he was seeing only one face and it was her face only. The optic nerve was generating the visuals from eyes, but all visuals were getting replaced by her face only. It was like that optic nerve is redirected to the neocortex and thalamus, because mental work space has only one picture and it was her picture…

His heart was crying and feelings was giving its company, and mind was perplexed and it was in dilemma what to do, sometimes it wanted to control the intensity but mind had also fallen in love with that face only.

It was so wonderful, when Sameer was with her even if it was normal relation. He was happy with everything. He never thought that he would fall for her so deeply. It had been almost a decades when Sameer has felt such kind of intensity towards someone. He was a well matured guy, but still his maturity was not helping him to get the fuck out of that feelings. He was trapped badly with his feelings.

He was putting his all efforts but still failed to get the same from her side. He was trying day after day to get her into his life. He wanted to live his life with her, but she was not being ready thoroughly. She was lenient sometimes may be to make him feel better, but she never put any effort. Therefore, it was pretty much clear that Sameer was squandering his time and energy to get her love. He had been trying all to get her love, but God was not helping him.

Eventually, a day came where they both were talking about the possible scenario to become one.

Sameer was putting all his concerns with solutions. And at some points she was supposed to be agree but not thoroughly. And then there happen something with Sameer; he was alone on terrace, thinking about her and her love. He was pondering over the last day discussion. Inner Sameer was talking with the mad Sameer. He said, “Sameer, you always wanted a person in your life who can understand you, who can support you and can live with you happily without any condition. You wanted to pursue your dream with the support of that special person because you wanted to make her life most beautiful in the world. But, what you are doing now. You are crying to get her love, and you are ready to accept all the conditions just to get her love. What will do with her love? Do you have recipe to make some delicious cuisine? No, love is an innate things and very sacred thing. If she does not love, and wants to come in your life on some conditions then what is the meaning of that love where trust does not exist. If she loves you then she will have to trust you and support you. So, I request you not to chase such love, if she loves you, she will come and hug you tightly forever. If she doesn’t then why to get bother. You love her, keep loving but don’t keep expectation just go ahead and make your life better for all”.

Sameer was numb at his place, he was looking into the sky, and trying to unleash his feelings, but the moment he was thinking about leaving her, his heart was thumping and crying as if it would pop out in seconds. But he was thinking about the inner Sameer. What if she accepts me on terms and condition. I want to make her life beautiful, but she does not trust, she needs some code of conduct. What I will do with this love where love doesn’t exist. I am poping out my heart and her heart is not even taking my name. Then what is the meaning of such loves. Let her go, if she has ever loved me, definitely she will come back otherwise it would be good for both of us.

Sameer was crying, but tears were rigid they do not want to come, and it was being more pathetic for him. There was no anybody who could understand the feelings of Sameer. He did not want to lose her at any rate, he was ready to give his all for her, but who was there to make him understand. His mind, heart, and feelings all were crying. Inner Sameer again came and tapped his back and hugged him, and said, what will do with this love, it is not a movie, you are not a hero of Heer-Ranjha, you are Sameer, you have a lot to do in your life, if she does not wish to accept your love, then it is her loss, but who knows she will get more love from other person who can take care of her by all mean. You have nothing to offer but your love.

This World has become very practical brother, it does not look for love, it wants something else, and you have only love for her. People now a days do not want love, they can manage their lives without love, but they need something very important things that do not need love.

Accept the truth and move ahead. Sameer stood up. wiped his tears, and said-

‘It is enough, I will let her go, will not call her name again. I may keep loving her, but never going to take her name again. Let’s change the path and mind set. ‘

Now, heart was calm, feelings were settling down, and mind was also gloomy but it was feeling kind of relax.

But somewhere, all were crying for no reason… It was true love, and tears of true love were spread all over the face of Sameer, but they all were now smudged off.

The workspace of memory were keeping her photo aside but they did not remove it, they all were in a hope, but mind was trying to steal it off, but heart and feeling had put their hands on that photo they do not want to let it go away, they just wanted to keep it with the intention of loving her even after decades without any expectation and without harming themselves. The tears of true love were falling continuously from the eyes of Sameer